Sunday, December 11, 2005 ; anthem of love
I'm feeling so honoured and undeserving right now, cause I'm gonna be pastor lian's adc.
i just can't believe it. why not the other 300 youths in dare? why me? i'm not even a mighty men (MM). i have been serving in publicity ministry officially for only 2 months?! Even yesterday, during service, when Deacon's adc picked up his coat for him, i thought like wahh... Deacon just anyhow throw, then he gotta pick up.
When i first learned of the term 'adc' during last year's evangelion camp, i told my friend, 'wahh. like servant liddat.' whatever deacon wanted, he gotta do. Honestly speaking rite, being pastor's adc will be easier lah. she won't take out her jacket while preaching, she won't be leading worship after service, she won't need pi pa gao. only the honey lemon, and celeste will do it! anyways, i only adcing once every 2 months.
Being chosen as adc, even though i screwed the interview big time, being the only person interviewed for adc, being chosen even though i'm not sociable, i don't go bible study every week, and in fact, can't go at all when school reopens, being adc even though i don't honour and obey my parents, cause the bible says 'honour your father and mother, so that you'll live a long life, and all things will go well on earth.' something like that lah.
being chosen even though i don't even know how to make honey, i don't read the bible, i'm not hungry for Him, i don't trust Him most of the time.. and a 101 reasons lah.
man. i feel so underserving. praise jesus lah. its 10000000% Him. i have so many faults with myself lah.
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