Friday, November 10, 2006 ; anthem of love
hello! i haven't done any homework since the monday, and i'm procrastinating. i suppose that's just cause i want to reaallly enjoy my first week of the holidays, and i have been enjoying. but before i can do homework, gotta settle stuff first. like clearing my table and filing all my papers and copying all the notes.
the MM shirt is done DONE DONE! now all that is left is the printing part.
keyboards ytd at coach joy's house was great! katie wasn't able to join us though, cuz she was sick. never mind.. she's healed already. and we'll tell her what happened afterwards during dinner! coach joy pointed out something. in the youth ministry, we sing songs that are very.. destiny like, and very full of jesus, jesus is your everything kinda songs. like one way, take it all, from the inside out. and in the main service, we sing more of 'majesty songs'. for example, worthy is the lamb, thou art worthy. i dont exactly know how to put it in words, but i hope you get the point! and she also said something very impt. it sounds very simple, but i suppose i didn't actually give it much thought. she said, to ask the lord to increase your passion for keyboards.
and charissa and coach joy were telling us a few songs that were banned from singing. and i dont really agree lah. like for example the the song, history maker, is banned and can only be sang at camps. because one of the verse, 'I'm gonna be, a history maker in this land.' is very self effort. but seriously i dont get the point lah. i mean, you dont meditate on the song right, you meditate on the bible and God's word. furthermore, how can YOU be a history maker YOURSELF, without God? impossible!
and the song, now that you're near is also banned, cuz there's a part that says, 'hold me in your arms, never let me go, i wanna spend eternity with you.' so it's as if, the lord will let you go. okay lah maybe that one can understand. but the point is this, that you're suppose to meditate on His word, not meditate on the songs that we sing! oh and the song better than life. the part, 'better than the riches of this world.' apparently, makes you sound like you dont want to get rich. okay i really dont get that it! how does it make you sound like you dont want to get rich?! i seriously think the music ministry should reconsider this bans.
yay there's BS tonight, and mika, janey and i are going for campus tomorrow. probably we'll ask other ppl too. and on sunday there's service. i dunno why these few weeks, i've been feeling spiritually hungry. in the past, going to church was more so because i'll get to see my friends again, but these few weeks, the hilight of the church is the service. i mean, the fellowshipping before and after service still means a lot to me, but the main reason i love and want to go church now, is because i'll be spiritually fed. and i promised myself that one day i'll go for service and sit alone. (gosh i sound so anti-social!) so that i'll really get to praise and worship, and listen to the sermon un-distracted, and i'll get to catch all that the pastor preaches.
although i only went campus once, i loved the message pastor chin preached. it was simple, but yet just reminded me of His love for me. and i listened abit of his sermons on CD, because my brother only bought 2 or 3 CDs. they just spoke to me, and reminded me of the greatness. all pastor chin's sermons are about the greatness on the lord in ur life, destiny, your future is good etc. but yet, i never fail to always get blessed by his message. i'll ask alene to lend me cuz i know she has quite a few CDs too! (:
ahh but my brother actually discourages me from going campus, and listening to the CD sermons, cuz 'it's not my time yet'. i mean if like that then i might as well not go main service. not my time yet wad!
PRAISE JESUS the ppl on the waiting list can go for camp! but the thing is that the ppl sitting at the back will be way back. but never mind. God does not see where you are standing, but how much your heart is opened to Him. so if you're standing behind, that doesn't mean you wont receive as much as a person who's standing in front.
i can't wait to go back to Guoman! ! ! ! ! i still remember evangelion ever so clearly, even though it was 2 years ago. i remember it so much better than NGL. Evangelion was the place where my life changed, where the lord began a wonderful work in my life. it was the place where i found godly friendships in my wonderful caregroup and the ppl whom i still hangout with today. alene, amanda, christon, gina, ethel, nicholas, tsu ting, are the ppl that i remember out of the rest of whom i'm not in contact with anymore, like yongjie, teck hua, gillian, jessica, stephanie, ethel neo, etc. and of course joshua wong and dora our dearest leaders. and i really really treasure our precious friendships. all of us have grown so much, and become ppl of great destiny!
and i remember during evangelion, every morning before morning service and before breakfast, delight and i would walk on the beach. and the games too were fun. and the services were AWESOME! and the powerful time when pastor dan was preaching about the Eagles in the morning service. just so.. okay no word to describe but powerful. and the ministering times, when the presence of God was so strong! and during i think the 3rd day; morning service, where ppl were just falling down. on bibles that were not cleared out in time, on water bottles etc. and ppl were crying.
and the last night, where ppl were sharing testimonies, but half the congregration was asleep! and i didn't want to stay inside the ballroom anymore cuz i was tired, and i kept on getting awoken by the cheering that happens at the end of each testimony, so tsuting and i sat outside and talked and talked. for 2 hours straight. and i'd never forget that time. cuz i actually didn't like her initially, but praise jesus for our friendship now!
and then the praise and worship on the last night, until 3am. then GI went to the poolside and just fellowshipped and prevented ourselves from sleeping by doing stupid things. haha but delight and i couldn't take it anymore and went back to slp. but then there were ppl sleeping in our room already, so we slept on this long plank of wood that was by the window. on it, there was a huge bolster and 2 pillows. and i slept on the comfortable DARE jacket, while delight slept on the bolster.
okay i'm just reminiscing the times. but although Evangelion had memories, i know EJ2 will have much much more memories! and i truly truly believe, that EJ2 will far surpass evagelion and ej1. Daddy God, what do you want me to ask from you in EJ2? i know that my life will be good in the future, and i have blessed friendships. i'm basically very blessed already. maybe this camp will be a time of thanksgiving for me. praise the lord, he answers my requests. haha. i know what things to ask from EJ2 camp already! thank you. (:
and Huper will grow and multiply amen!
I AM THE BEST! because jesus is the best and He lives in me!
i just realised my entry is sooo long, when all i meant was just to type a little.
I want to go SWIMMING!! i miss swimming so much. and there's no holiday training. what kind of CCA is this mans! holiday no training one. how to compete in nationals like that?! oh i had this dream last night. i dreamt that the swimming pool was just at my doorstep. so cool. something like that of coach lily's house. it will happen okay! amen.
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