Wednesday, November 22, 2006 ; anthem of love
i have so much on my mind right now, and i'm just so stressed. many things have been going around in my head especially today
firstly there's the hillsongs boxes which gotta be completed by 2pm on friday. it may seem easy to do but it's far from that mans! one box has the top, and 4 sides to be painted. so since there are 4 boxes, there are faces altogether. and on monday, we spent the whole day painting, only to have faces painted finish. and on thursday, we're busy, and tmr gina's going for MM prac, so nothing can be done.
secondly is the publicity shirts. gina and i are in charge of it. coach joy wants those shirts that require brushes kind, like those roxy kind of shirts. and for some reason my brush is freaking screwed. my brushes only come out in white colour which is not a big problem because i can always invert the colour, but what makes me so irritated is that whenever i just click my mouse once, the design like x10! so it becomes one whole chunk of white on the canvas. so thus, i cant use the brushes which is the essence of the whole shirt design. and thus, i feel bad cuz gina has to do everything!
thirdly, there's my mum's constant nagging and scolding. please lor. i didnt go for today's prac and she's still not happy, then i told her i'm not going for tmr's prac and she's still not happy. at least every hour will scold at least once. it's really getting on my nerves. and every time will ask me to do math / or complain that i never read newspapers / or complain that i buy 'so many' assessment books and never study etc etc never ending. and even when i use the computer for 5 minutes, she scolds me continuously.
4: gotta think of flag design for huper 1. think of what to draw, which i havent thought yet.
5: today was super duper unproductive and i didnt even do what i planned. no homework done.
6: i realised that i have about 10 books that i need to read because they are unread! and i have to finish them by the end of the holidays. so far i only read one finish!
7:i havent begun any holiday homework at all!
8: since i wont be going for the MM dance prac tmr, i wont know the dance steps, and since i take quite long to learn, it will hinder me lah basically.
9: this is the freaking 4th week of my holidays, and honestly speaking, i havent had a good good rest. and this holiday is so unproductive. hopefully next week i will have a good rest and will finish holiday homework; and i wont be too tied down with stuff.
10: i need motivation, i cant seem to be able to sit down and study, when i do want to study. my mind and my actions are not in line with each other.
jesus, i need you. i simply need you and more of you.
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