Wednesday, January 23, 2008 ; anthem of love
before everyone knows their O level results tomorrow, and decide where they wanna go, i wanna say that i love 1T-08! haha. almost everyone in the class is confirmed staying on in CJC. its quite heartwarming to know that most people think cjc is really fun and want to stay on. and not just those in my class. so many people i know all want to stay on. and today cherlynn and tessa said that we can appeal to brother paul, if we want to stay together as a class for the next two years. awww, so sweet and so cool! even though the guys can be quite annoying at times, i really really love 1T-08, and i want us to stay as a class together :) and i'm really extremely grateful to God for leading me to CJC. if i weren't in cjc, i wouldnt have been able to enjoy myself so much and have so much fun. initially, i thought cjc would be full of cliques and that everyone would know everyone else etc. i thought cjc wouldnt be fun at all. i wanted to go there after my prelims simply cos it was the most realistic choice. but God had other plans for me and He has blessed me so much. my dad was so afraid that i would get bullied by people there. haha praise jesus nothing of that sort happened, or will ever happen to me :) it still amazes me each day that i managed to adapt to jc life so quickly, and that i actually enjoy the lecture-tutorial system. and i am able to cope with my studies. also, i thought i would find waking up early to catch the bus a chore, cos i havent done it since kindergarten, but praise jesus i'm quite ok with it. and i never imagined that i would have known so many people and made so many friends in such a short span of time. for example, as yiwen pointed out yesterday, yesterday was the 22th jan, which is 20 days from which our IG first met. and so much stuff has happened in just 20 days, and we have grown so so much closer and known each other so well in just 20 days. also, after going to CJC, my fitness level improved so much. i used to be unable to stand on the bus for a long period of time, but today, i could stand all the way, without feeling giddy or weak. and i used to be unable to sit backwards on the bus. but now i'm able to, without having motion sickness. also, i used to be very tired in the morning all the time and i would have this sian face. but that has gone. praise jesus really. oh and i used to hate PE, but somehow in CJC, even though the PE is real tough and its twice a week, i love it. and i'm thinking of joining ODAC, which is like the toughest CCA there, cos their warm-up is 6km runs. somehow God changed my inside in such a short span of time, and i just feel so different inside as to when i was in sec school. Thank You God. my transition from secondary school to jc has been such a smooth one, that i know it can only be You. You love me so much, that you even made all the seemingly insiginificant things good. its really all these small bits that make my day, everyday, and Jesus, You make my day.
My God is just so good to me.
and just now i was at a wake, and they sang this song which the chorus goes,
because He lives, I can face tomorrow
because He lives, all fear is gone
and because i know, i know He holds my future
and life is worth the living, just because He lives
and that song just spoke so much to me, cos tomorrow i'm receiving my O level results, and i can be fearless, cos my future is secured in Him. but to be very very honest, i'm not that scared, cos i know i'm going to stay on in cjc already. so i dont feel the pressure and the need to get a single digit. but yet i dont want that to be the reason why i dont fear. i want the reason to be because my future is as bright as the promises of God :)
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