Sunday, April 20, 2008 ; anthem of love
i'm in the competition team now, and i believe its the favour of God that brought me to the team. the first time i was asked, i emailed eugene to tell him i didnt want to join cos i felt i wasnt ready yet; ready for the tough training, and i havent passed my level 0 yet at that point. passing level 0 seemed very very far away and impossible. i wanted to join, but what kept me from joining, was that i felt i wasnt ready yet, and the fear of the tough trng. but then after i emailed him, i regretted a lot after that. i felt that perhaps i should have said yes. but praise jesus, his grace superabounds, and i was given another opportunity to join the team (: when prashan asked me, how badly i wanted to join the team on wednesday, i couldnt give him an answer. i really didnt know what to say.
i still rmb the first time i joined odac, my first training; we were grouped into groups, and collectively as a group, we were suppose to run 30 rounds around the track, 50 grandstands and i think 100 pull-ups. i was supposed to run 5 rounds, do 8 GSTs (grandstand torture), and 10 pull-ups. for the run, we were suppose to sprint a round, then wait until everyone else has run, then run again. after doing it twice, i died-ed. seriously. i collapsed on the ground, and i was lying there and i couldnt take it. i felt so giddy and everything. mr ching had to give me a mars bar. also, after doing like 5 GSTs that was it. and i couldnt even do one assisted guy pull-up properly. mr ching said i had low blood sugar. and i really thought so. but God told me that i didnt have it. at that point, i wanted to give up joining odac, and go join like student council or something. but i kept going, cos i sensed in my heart that God wanted me to join odac, that odac was the CCA for me.
and then during the arrow service near good friday, we took the holy communion. i still rmb, i wasnt very focused, but then pastor benjamin said these words, 'no fatigue', like four times. and i took that word for my situation.
i said all these, to say that i am who i am today in odac; i improved so so fast in odac, cos God is with me. i know that i would never have made all these achievements in odac, if it wasnt for God's hand upon my life.
anyways, the 400m heats are on monday, and i'm really not confident. yesterday when xinying, cat, damian and i went to bishan stadium to train and practise, my timing was soo horrible. let Your hand be upon my run on monday. amen.
and i learnt alot yesterday from arrow service. what pastor preached was so apt for the situations that i was facing. i am not defined by my natural siuation and circumstance, but i'm defined by the grace of God (:
i need a feasible and manageable idea for my PI. shucks.
when my life gets so busy with so much stuff going on, all the more i'll be found in the house of God.
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